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Shoot for the moon and you might land a star

... but then, don't be frustrated if you didn't land the moon! :)

This post is all about wanting what you can't possibly have, and then feeling frustrated when you fail to get it. Now, how stupid is that?
Yeah, that's right, too stupid for someone like me to do it. And still...
It would be quite easy to blame my passionate nature for all the times I do something THAT stupid, but the truth is I have my own share of fault. I constantly tell myself that now I'm a grown-up, I'm supposed to control my passion and restrain myself from such things. But most of the time I don't. It's just too much fun!
So, how do I deal with the frustration, then? How do I learn to be happy with the star I already have? How do I persuade myself to want what I can actually have?
The answer to all these is simple: I don't do anything about it. I just live my feelings as they come. So, right now I'm feeling miserable cause I can't afford a Toyota Yaris, I don't get much appreciation at work, I can't move in with my boyfriend or, even worse, I can't have the man I want...
SO WHAT?
What makes me miserable today might make me happy tomorrow. It is one of the greatest advantages of having a passionate nature. What I want and can't have keeps me under continuous pressure, there's always some kind of challenge in my life, and failing in one challenge makes me twice as happy about the challenges I succeed in, than if I was only surrounded with success. And then, the moment you realize you can have EVERYTHING, you stop wanting ANYTHING. Now, that's sad.
And, yes, right now, I am actually happy about what made me miserable yesterday. I want a man I can't have but the struggle to have him was so much fun, it made me happy so many times... Am I going to give up? NO! My interest in this man will fade out eventually (it ALWAYS does, I've had plenty of occasions to see that), I'll no longer have reasons to feel miserable and frustrated and I'll always remember with pleasure the way it made me feel... happy, beautiful, strong. A real woman in my own eyes... :)
Is it worth hurting over all this? THAT'S A DEFINITE YES! :) :) :) :)

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